almost did not desire to live
It's a Chinese idiom, J ī B ù y ù sh ē ng in pinyin, which means that you almost don't want to live. It comes from diaoshuo by Lu Dajun of Song Dynasty.
The origin of Idioms
Lu Dajun of the Song Dynasty wrote in diaoshuo: "his heart of compassion and his sense of pain and illness do not want to live."
Idiom usage
I'm almost desperate.
[example]
It's time for Sister Feng, a greedy woman, to be completely copied. She is naturally sad and afraid of complaint. A dream of Red Mansions by Cao Xueqin in Qing Dynasty
Chinese PinYin : jī bù yù shēng
almost did not desire to live
everybody will be deterred by the danger. rén rén zì wēi
Don't know the true face of Lushan. bù shí lú shān zhēn miàn mù
It's like participating in business. dòng rú cān shāng